This is a self-photo at 6 months along with our next baby boy, you get desperate to keep track and resort to such silly photos! Tim and I are not always in the same place when we remember to capture the moment so forgive my funny photo.
At this point I am feeling better but bigger for sure. I have spent the last several weeks easing myself into the idea of having two boys. What's a girl to do? Funny how mere acquaintances react to us having another boy as such a dilemma. I too felt this way before we found out. Not having a girl will mean less power shopping, all the mother-daughter memories like my mom and I have cherished will be void and though I am not the most girly of girly girls I do love a sappy movie, enjoy being pampered and simply adore being a girl. So again what's a girl to do? Then you get the comments like girls will never leave you and it makes you think well with two sons Tim and I will be put out to pasture before our time - yikes! Or I love the immediate response of "will you try for a girl then"? No guarantees there folks, we know a family having their fourth boy in just a week or so. So I dug down deep into my heart of hearts and asked what's a girl to do?
Simple really -- enjoy growing this magical creature that miraculously, and not easily, was created to complete our family. He will come into our lives and bring Max a best friend, Tim another buddy and helper and me another little prince, and with two I just might get a little spoiled myself!
Everyone says as long as they are healthy matters most. I could not agree more. Sometimes your child is not perfectly healthy in mind or body and those parents push through and do the very best for their innocent little ones. I salute those families and honestly hope I do not know their strife. When it all happens, whether your family circle is complete or just getting started you feel a bit guilty admitting that you want a happy, healthy child and you do pray that nothing abnormal will appear. Those children and individuals with special needs of any kind are God's creatures and deserving of so much love but I personally cannot deny never wanting my child or any child to feel marginalized or deal with poor health. These are things we cannot control just like we cannot dictate the gender of our child. But among these observations doesn't it seem really silly to worry over pink or blue? I learned my lesson for sure and snapped myself out of the pretty in pink zone in just enough time to remember this next baby, this baby boy, will bring so much joy and no matter what he looks like or acts like he will be beautiful and perfect to me.
